She is coming...:)))

Modernity has simultaneously created more freedom and fear; we like the space to write our own rules, but sometimes wish we had a roadmap for life; we shun social norms but still look for security; and we like the adventure of the restless life, but still want to be rooted. One in every hundred marriages in India ends in divorce. But the search for a suitable boy is still a national pastime.

And perhaps, in the netherworld that lies between the head and the heart, are all our lives.

She rocks.

Exhale...

and when you're tired
you'll take that walk back home
take off that mask
close your eyes
and feel the blood
coursing through your tired veins
and the ache deep within
weary from all of life
weary of all people
weary of all the conversation
the messages, the mails, the calls

and when you'll come back
there's a bed
there's a lampshade
soft glow on the walls
flowers on the table
and some music that you want
your private haven
where you wont need noone

and you will just let go
and live...

Fire (she's comin' down on her own, now)
Fire (she's comin' down on her own, now)
Fire (she's comin' down on her own, now)
Fire (she's comin' down on her own, now)

- The One I Love
R.E.M

Change is only constant...

Its time to go B.L.A.C.K

to do

or to not?

I am so high, I can hear heaven
I am so high, I can hear heaven
Oh but heaven, no heaven don't hear me

And they say that a hero can save us
I'm not gonna stand here and wait
I'll hold on to the wings of the eagles
Watch as we all fly away...

- Hero
Chad Kroeger
OST Spiderman

You, About Me

And for once, again
Let go of the idol
Off my hand, into the waves;

Devoid of family,
no friends, no people

no words, no murmurs;

Just a long overcoat,
the most cosy pair of jeans
and a long long walk...

I'm happy.

Mary Jane

It seems foolish
To want everything normal
And do nothing natural
When you thought
Its only you, destined
For a life less worth

Whats the matter mary jane, you had a hard day
As you place the dont disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore

Its a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And youre on it

It seems foolish

To have been stuck

In a time that was past

The future was so dark

Blind, you refused to see

That what you had

Was only sand

And then tottering steps

Until slowly,

You learnt to prance

The heart so warm

You let yourself bask

I hear youre counting sheep again mary jane
Whats the point of trying to dream anymore
I hear youre losing weight again mary jane
Do you ever wonder who youre losing it for

Well its full speed baby
In the wrong direction
Theres a few more bruises
If thats the way
You insist on heading

Please be honest mary jane
Are you happy
Please dont censor your tears

No shades, no force-field

Willing to let go

You chose your path

And then you found

It was the crossroads

Once again...

So take this moment mary jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
All that matters mary jane is your freedom
Keep warm my dear, keep dry

Tell me
Tell me
Whats the matter mary jane

- Mary Jane
Alanis Morissette

Nainital

ghoome fire
daroo sharoo
khaana peena
boating voating
gappe shappe
cawfee vawfee

achy bums
dizzy heights
crystal waters
chinar leaves
foggy breath
silver oaks

a walk in the clouds...

:))

Words That I Am Proud Of...

One lazy afternoon
When the music played
You and I

And the wall clock
Moments ticking by
I didn't hear

But I did
The rhythm of your breath
Merge with mine

Did my arm hurt you?
Or my breath,
Too warm?

I dare not move
Dare not sleep
As You

Fit in to me,
A statue
A mold

And nothing now
Only crumpled sheets
A blue bangle

And this feel...

across one aisle to another
a sheath of light from this window
and another
they gazed
'You don't call me anymore
when it's time for the night?'

i didn't have any words
just half a blink in pain
while the train chugged on
across an iron bridge;
and with my finger tips
i touched her palm

Dreams supposedly have a strange way of coming true...

I sure wish mine did...

The Butterfly Effect

Just finished watching 'The Butterfly Effect'. It reminded me of this movie, 'Run Lola Run' starring Franka Potente where there are three alternative scenarios occuring in succession because of a minor alteration in the way events unfold. A trigger, A result and A wide expanse of happenings in between and the possibility of a minor change in any one of them altering the result in a drastic way. Thats what The Butterfly Effect is about. Ashton Kutcher wants to change the way the world is and makes numerous attempts at it by going back in time to change the future. He fails at each attempt, he realizes that the end is not something he really wanted and even though he has the opportunity to alter the future the way he wants, something will always go wrong. In the end, he does end up making his peace with his world, albeit with compromises...like never getting to be anywhere near the girl he's loved so much.

Thought provoking.

An Evening in Delhi

I would be meeting her after a gap of almost 3 months. She was coming to Delhi for the first time. I was a bit tired from the previous night office party. But it didn't matter, she was in Delhi only for a couple of days. We managed to arrange for a rendezvous on Thursday after our office hours. I thought Dilli Haat would be a place she would love, all the handicrafts and jewellery shopping should excite her. She herself had heard about it so much. I was apprehensive if she would find something that she'd want to buy. Bombay roadside shopping is at least as good as Delhi shopping, if not better.

She notices the silver jewellery stall and her eyes lit up. Earrings. She likes a pair but it is overpriced, she feels. I tell her to bargain, but its different to bargain in Bombay and in Delhi. I ask her why and she says just so, she has never been to Delhi. There were a number of handicraft stalls, hand woven fabrics, earthenware...I am happy I took her to the place. She selects two pairs of earrings and bought them without any bargaining. The shopkeeper wont bargain when there are other customers around, she says. Finally, she asks me to wait and walks up to a girl buying at the next stall and asks her how much can one haggle. The girl shares her wisdom, she bought a garment for 150 bucks after the shopkeeper quoted 300 for it. My lady is happy, confident now. Bedsheets, short kurta, leather bag, wallet, saree, cushion covers.

It was dark now. Finally topped it off with momos and fruit beer at the food court. And the old man played a beautiful tune on his 'Ektara'...Pallo Chhatke or something. She said she didn't like the song, but the instrumental tune sounded heavenly. Soon it was time for our rendezvous to end and find an auto to Lodi Estates where her room was. We both noticed the wet earth, smell of grass and moist wood in the air. I dropped her and went on...on my way home. It would be a long drive.

A heavy heart, a break from the loneliness...and a rakhi. :)

Bahut daaru peene se saala liver kharab ho jaata hai...

Does lager count?

*hic

A shiver runs through
And yet they are only words
What you once thought
Was forever a companion
Is also destined

It will follow its own path
With just as much disregard
No place for you, No thought of you

Remember those harmless jokes
Part of what you thought
A memory for a lifetime
And then came a phone call
Innocuous, but stopped you still

For someone, it was merely
Piece of information
Important, nonetheless

But it leaves a gaping hole
A shiver runs through...