At times like today, I feel like Ive not been strong enough. There have been decisions to make, always. And the proverbial way, there is the easy way out with immediate rewards and the difficult way out with lasting rewards. I have done different things at different times, choosing one of the either way without so much of a guide book to help. And when I look back at those times and wonder what it would be like if I'd done differently, there is no clear answer. However, almost every time I have reconciled with it and made my peace with the decision and the outcome. It has of course, involved varying amounts of time for that to happen. But right now, I feel that there are some things that will never find peace in the natural course of history. Some levels of entropy will remain, till the time some things change, some barriers broken or some event occurs which turns you around to face a similar decision again. And this time, I wonder if there is a possibility of change. I wonder if there is time and opportunity yet to make that peace, and if it will in any which way undo or make up for whatever was the past. I wonder, today, if I should make peace with a few things in life...or wait for it...